I struggle deeply between a balance of pushing my limits and respecting my limits.
With the pressure of society and pressure I put on myself to achieve things with that “better, faster, stronger” mentality, it is a conscious decision to treat myself with kindness.
My weekends often go something like this…
(insert huge long list of everything I “should” be doing):
- Wash laundry
- Fold laundry
- Clean counters
- Clean out fridge
- Vacuum (floors, stairs, furniture)
- Clean cat boxes
- Take out trash
- Focus on reorganizing one room of the house
- ….by the time they have all been done its time to start back at the first room
- Yard work
- Meal Plan
- Meal Prep
- Time for myself
- Time for friends
- Undistracted time with Derek
- Time to blog
- Time to work on my business
- ETC…ETC….ETC…you get the point you have your own bottomless lists too…
What I actually did this weekend:
- 4 hours alone, on the couch, with a bottle of wine, watching Jane the Virgin.
- 8 hours sitting outside with friends (mostly watching, with a few “I pick things up and put things down” moments) while their deck was being rebuilt.
- Achieved 8 of the 14 household tasks that were on my to-do list for today.
- Wrote this blog.
- Business meeting at 7pm.
I could be shaming myself for not doing “enough” but you know what… “enough” will never be “enough” unless you come to terms with you did exactly what you needed to do for yourself. Truth is, I haven’t had a weekend home in a month. And truth is, there will always be dishes to wash, laundry to fold, toilets to clean and dust to dust. Truth is, it is a balance.
“Balance is the key to everything. What we do, think, say, eat, feel, they all require awareness and through this awareness we can grow.” -Koi Fresco